{"id":11339,"date":"2023-04-13T17:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-04-13T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/?p=11339"},"modified":"2023-04-13T19:54:31","modified_gmt":"2023-04-13T19:54:31","slug":"deine-fotografien-spiegeln-deine-seele-wieder-wie-ich-es-erkannt-habe","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/deine-fotografien-spiegeln-deine-seele-wieder-wie-ich-es-erkannt-habe\/","title":{"rendered":"Your photo\u00adgraphs reflect your soul \u2014 how I have reco\u00adg\u00adnised it"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Your photo\u00adgraphs reflect your soul \u2014 how I have reco\u00adg\u00adnised it<\/h2>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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\u201cThe most important thing about photo\u00adgraphy is who you are, and I can go into more depth about the psycho\u00adlogy of this pheno\u00admenon, but there is no way you can take a photo without putting your own stamp on it. Every time you press the shutter it\u2019s based on who you are, that\u2019s what sets you apart from ever\u00adyone else. My style is that I shoot from the heart, straight to the heart.\u201d \u2014 Joe Buissink<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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First of all, this blog post will probably be the most personal one yet. It begins with a stroke of fate in our still young family, as I always thought, some\u00adthing like this will not hit us. About how I sought solace in photo\u00adgraphy and how, after a few weeks of self-reflec\u00adtion and looking at my photos from this diffi\u00adcult time, I realised that our photo\u00adgraphs undoub\u00adtedly reflect our souls.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Gear:<\/span><\/p>

Sony a7III
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Sony FE 100\u2013400 mm GM
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What happened?<\/h3>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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It all started in mid-October. Our daughter was incre\u00adasingly plagued by cons\u00adti\u00adpa\u00adtion and stomach pains. Some\u00adthing we had never known from her. We had not changed anything on the nutri\u00adtional side either. The doctors saw no reason for a closer exami\u00adna\u00adtion and left it at an enema. When she refused to go more and more often at the begin\u00adning of November, we became more and more worried. The doctors told us that this could be a phase. However, as the cons\u00adti\u00adpa\u00adtion increased over the next few days and she wanted to walk less and less and spent large parts of her day on the sofa in a resting posi\u00adtion, we went to the paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcian and also to the emer\u00adgency room of the children\u2019s hospital. The tenor was the same ever\u00ady\u00adwhere. Cons\u00adti\u00adpa\u00adtion. Enema. \u201cWhen you have really bad cons\u00adti\u00adpa\u00adtion, you don\u2019t want to walk any more\u201d, and so on.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Overst\u00adret\u00adched paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcians and emer\u00adgency rooms \u2014 no help in sight<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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The emer\u00adgency rooms and paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcians at that time were over\u00adc\u00adrowded with children who had the RS virus. Over\u00adworked paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcians and we are annoyed with some\u00adthing as banal as cons\u00adti\u00adpa\u00adtion and stomach aches. But it couldn\u2019t go on like this. We saw that our daughter was suffe\u00adring more and more. So we kept at it. Paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcian again. We insisted on ultra\u00adsound or blood test. After 3 hours in the waiting room with a whining and crying child, we were told that no such exami\u00adna\u00adtion would be done today. She gets another enema and if it doesn\u2019t get better, we should go to the emer\u00adgency room of the children\u2019s hospital. I was told that we should take her for a walk. I only asked if she had listened to me at all, my child hasn\u2019t been walking for a few days. This state\u00adment didn\u2019t elicit more than a shrug of the shoulders. So off to the emer\u00adgency room. Maybe someone there will take time for our daughter.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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No capa\u00adcity. Enema. Sent home again. 2 days later. The enemas always provide short-term relief and we thought maybe that was it. On Friday, our daughter didn\u2019t take a step again. Emer\u00adgency room again in the evening. Pain\u00adkil\u00adlers. Enema. But the first doctor said, if it\u2019s not better by Monday, go to hospital and don\u2019t let up, it could well be some\u00adthing worse. We couldn\u2019t even imagine how bad it could be.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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We sense evil<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Our daughter spent most of the day just lying on the bed or the sofa. At the begin\u00adning of the next week, we went to the paed\u00adia\u00adtric clinic again. To our own dismay, we noticed a bulge on the lower part of the spine just above the coccyx. Imme\u00addia\u00adtely our daughter was examined with ultra\u00adsound. Unknown mass, several cm. Then in the follo\u00adwing days she had an MRI and a blood test. After 3 days in the clinic the diagnosis was made. Germ cell tumour. Probably a parti\u00adcu\u00adlarly mali\u00adgnant tumour of the yolk sac. She is to be operated on imme\u00addia\u00adtely after the MRI.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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After an initial discus\u00adsion with the doctor in charge about what the next steps would be, my wife and I were asked to go to the inten\u00adsive care unit at the children\u2019s hospital. Some time passed and we had to wait outside the door. We could only console our tears at the diagnosis and the inner emptiness by hugging each other. The most diffi\u00adcult hours, days, weeks, maybe even months of our lives passed. After what felt like hours, we were brought in.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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The diagnosis<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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In front of us, lying unco\u00advered on an exami\u00adna\u00adtion bed, arms and legs stret\u00adched out from her, was our daughter on her back. An ultra\u00adsound of her lungs had just been taken. We could only see her briefly. Stroked her hair briefly. Touched her skin and whispered to her that ever\u00ady\u00adthing was going to be all right, even though we couldn\u2019t believe it ourselves at the moment. We were taken to an adjoi\u00adning room where they empa\u00adthe\u00adti\u00adcally tried to teach us how badly our daughter was actually doing. \u201cWe could not operate on your daughter\u2019s tumour,\u201d said the doctor present. The piece of dirt was too wrapped around the spine. We were shown the picture. From the rump up, the cancer wrapped around the spine. Had even broken a vertebra. The rectum and bladder outlet were squeezed off by it, hence the blockage. Altog\u00ade\u00adther 13 cm long and several cm wide forward into the abdomen and back along the back. Quite a large tumour for such a small, not quite two-year-old body.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Kompli\u00adka\u00adtionen & Metastasen<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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\u201cThere were also compli\u00adca\u00adtions with extu\u00adba\u00adtion on the first attempt, but we will try again later\u201d, the doctor continued soberly, \u201cShe did not start breathing again on her own\u201d. We couldn\u2019t believe it, burst into tears. Our child, perfectly healthy since day one. We never had to take her to the paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcian, except for the normal stan\u00addard check-ups, and now this. My wife\u2019s reac\u00adtion was more than human: \u201cOh God, what if she doesn\u2019t start breathing on her own again\u201d. \u201cWe have many worries,\u201d the doctor replied, \u201cbut that\u2019s not one of them. Her circu\u00adla\u00adtion will be fine, we are sure of that\u201d. A bigger worry is the meta\u00adstases we disco\u00advered in the lungs. Quite large ones, some of which carry the risk of trig\u00adge\u00adring a pulmo\u00adnary embo\u00adlism. \u201cWe are still scan\u00adning the liver and kidney and other organs with the ultra\u00adsound to see if the tumour has metasta\u00adsised further,\u201d the doctor said. A scan of the head should follow in the next few days.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Zero hour<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Out of reflex I said, \u201cDo you have any more bad news or is that it?\u201d A slight smirk from the doctor at my reac\u00adtion, coupled with a slight shake of the head. After each diagno\u00adstic step, we know more. That is the current status. He can\u2019t rule out the possi\u00adbi\u00adlity of more such news coming our way. At the moment, however, there are only two options. No chemo, which would lead to the death of our child within the next few days. Or chemo, he thinks the chances of cure are good. Fast-growing, aggres\u00adsive tumours often respond just as strongly to chemo. \u201cWe would already start the first chemo here in the ICU tonight,\u201d he said. \u201cYes please, as soon as possible,\u201d we replied, \u201cdo whatever it takes to help our daughter.\u201d \u201cWe will do that,\u201d the doctor said.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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This and all other shots of this post you can request under \u201cPrints\u201d as an art print for your wall at home directly from me. <\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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How did I process all these horror stories?<\/h3>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Only one hour after our conver\u00adsa\u00adtion, our daughter was successfully extu\u00adbated and even reacted to our presence. The first relief. At 7 pm, the first chemo started. From then on, things went steadily upwards. Always with small setbacks, that\u2019s clear. For example, she had also caught the RS virus from the paed\u00adia\u00adtri\u00adcian. And that in her critical condi\u00adtion. This gave us a few weeks in an isola\u00adtion room. But nevert\u00adheless, her condi\u00adtion got better from day to day, from week to week. The tumour lost its momentum through the chemo and slowly began to shrink.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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A sorrow shared is a sorrow halved<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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As there were still Corona condi\u00adtions in the hospi\u00adtals, I went back home the first evening. Our cats had to be taken care of. The night at home was quieter than usual, darker than usual. The omni\u00adpre\u00adsent emptiness almost crushed one. It was impos\u00adsible to think clearly. I quickly realised that I had to talk about it. So I talked to family and friends about our fate. Whoever asked got answers. There is no point in hiding ever\u00ady\u00adthing or parts of it and surren\u00adde\u00adring to one\u2019s fate alone. My wife and I soon realised that and these chan\u00adnels of commu\u00adni\u00adca\u00adtion were really worth their weight in gold. We were given comfort and courage and knew we could rely on so many people, many of whom we had not even considered. The support was really incre\u00addible. I would like to encou\u00adrage anyone with a similar fate to talk about it. With family, friends, neigh\u00adbours, club colle\u00adagues. You can\u2019t guess from which direc\u00adtion you will get support, but some\u00adthing like this hardly leaves anyone cold and every conver\u00adsa\u00adtion, every hug, every encou\u00adra\u00adge\u00adment gives strength.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Get away from it all and rech\u00adarge your batte\u00adries through photography<\/h3>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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In the first few days, one somehow func\u00adtioned. Ever\u00ady\u00adthing neces\u00adsary was done as if by remote control. But we could not yet sort out the thoughts in our heads. We learned what was coming from other parents and nurses, but what that meant, and also how we had to assess our daughter and her illness, all that was so diffi\u00adcult to put toge\u00adther in our heads. After a few days in hospital, I needed to get some distance, I thought, and took advan\u00adtage of a foggy winter morning to go out into the forest, to a nearby lake. Photograph.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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This morning was incre\u00addibly good for me perso\u00adnally. For pretty much exactly 2 hours all worries were, I wouldn\u2019t say disap\u00adpeared, but at least far away. While photo\u00adgra\u00adphing, I became part of nature, concen\u00adt\u00adra\u00adting on it and on taking pictures. The thoughts in my head sorted them\u00adselves out and I felt better afterwards.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Family life on the cancer ward<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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During the next few weeks when our daughter was in hospital, my wife and I took turns to be with her. Our family life virtually took place in the onco\u00adlogy depart\u00adment. We told each other the news from our surroun\u00addings, updated each other on our daughter\u2019s progress, handed over tasks we hadn\u2019t managed at home before chan\u00adging in the evening. The nights were hard. Little or very poor sleep. With one ear constantly on alert to see what was going on with our daughter. The nights at home were all the more restful when we noticed that things were slowly impro\u00adving and the adre\u00adna\u00adline wiped away the exhaustion.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Some mornings I went out into nature with my camera. These hours did me incre\u00addible good. The time in nature did me good. I rech\u00adarged my batte\u00adries for the next nights in the clinic.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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What I noticed when looking at my pictures<\/h3>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Parti\u00adcu\u00adlarly in the dark, barren season, when I usually went outdoors for photo\u00adgraphy mainly when it was snowing, I took a liking to dreary, some\u00adtimes even gloomy photo\u00adgraphs. I had no problem captu\u00adring the oppres\u00adsive mood of nature and editing them in such a way that the photos reflected the emptiness, silence and oppres\u00adsive burden I felt. All the photos in this blog post were taken between December \u201922 and March \u201923. A time when so many worries plagued us and a great uncer\u00adtainty haunted us. And they all reflect, to a great extent, the state of my soul. In a way that I would not have thought possible before.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Ever\u00ady\u00adthing expe\u00adri\u00adenced influences the person we are \u2014 and our photography<\/h4>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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In every photo that I have taken, in every decision that I have made in the selec\u00adtion and in every step of the proces\u00adsing on the computer, not only rational, tech\u00adnical conside\u00adra\u00adtions have gone into it, but also emotional conclu\u00adsions to a parti\u00adcu\u00adlarly high degree. And although in the past I would certainly have said a time or two that I didn\u2019t like such photo\u00adgraphs because they were too dark, too gloomy, too dreary, today I have to say that I consider these photo\u00adgraphs to be beau\u00adtiful and parti\u00adcu\u00adlarly meaningful. They are not just a captured moment in nature, but an expres\u00adsion of my inner life, of my feelings.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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\n\t\t\t\t\tYou don\u2019t take photo\u00adgraphs with a camera, you take them with <\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\n\t\t\t\t\tHeart and soul<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t<\/h4>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Although I have been taking photo\u00adgraphs for a number of years and have always been aware of this, or rather have always convinced myself that this was the case \u2014 \u201cthe photo\u00adgrapher takes the photo, not the camera\u201d \u2014 it has now become clear to me for the first time in this diffi\u00adcult time. So in every photo\u00adgraph there is a moment of this world frozen in space and time, but always also a large part of the photographer\u2019s own self.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Espe\u00adci\u00adally at a time when one hears and reads a lot on the internet about AI (arti\u00adfi\u00adcial intel\u00adli\u00adgence) and thus also AI-gene\u00adrated images, inclu\u00adding land\u00adscapes that look decep\u00adtively real, this reali\u00adsa\u00adtion is doubly salu\u00adtary. No AI in the world can gene\u00adrate this part of a photo\u00adgraph. Only the artist himself can contri\u00adbute his soul and his heart.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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Conclu\u00adsion<\/h3>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t
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Photo\u00adgraphy was like an outlet for me. For you, that outlet can be a comple\u00adtely diffe\u00adrent acti\u00advity. For example, writing a diary, pain\u00adting, dancing, singing, making music or some\u00adthing comple\u00adtely diffe\u00adrent. The important thing is to find your outlet to release pres\u00adsure and find yourself. Photo\u00adgraphy helped me a lot during this diffi\u00adcult time and beyond. It helped me to gain distance, to rech\u00adarge my batte\u00adries, to look more clearly, to get back the joy of life. Just as the joy of life in our daughter came back bit by bit.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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After a rapid 4 months, we had completed all the chemos. Our daughter had her zest for life back. Walking is still diffi\u00adcult for her today, as the tumour had also squeezed the nerves of her right foot, but that should only be a ques\u00adtion of time. A final opera\u00adtion to remove the coccyx toge\u00adther with the tumour finally closed this chapter. The patho\u00adlogy depart\u00adment also gave the reassu\u00adring signal that our daughter is now cancer-free again.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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I think in the future we will cele\u00adbrate this day, 11 April 2023, like a second birthday for our daughter. The day she beat cancer. We are infi\u00adni\u00adtely grateful for the great support from all sides and in a very special way also for the current state of cancer rese\u00adarch, the nurses, doctors and nurse prac\u00adti\u00adtio\u00adners who did ever\u00ady\u00adthing they could to help our daughter get well again. There was never a day when, thanks to them, we stopped belie\u00adving in the cure or lost heart. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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This blog post is probably the most personal post I have written so far. It begins with a stroke of fate in our still young family, as I always thought, some\u00adthing like that won\u2019t happen to us. About how I sought comfort in photo\u00adgraphy and how, after a few weeks of self-reflec\u00adtion and looking at my photos from this diffi\u00adcult time, I realised that our photo\u00adgraphs undoub\u00adtedly reflect our souls. <\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":11355,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wp_typography_post_enhancements_disabled":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,5],"tags":[21,259],"class_list":["post-11339","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog","category-fotografie-tipps","tag-fotografie","tag-seele"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11339","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11339"}],"version-history":[{"count":22,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11339\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11667,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11339\/revisions\/11667"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/11355"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11339"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11339"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/simonschoenhoff.de\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11339"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}